Why

Why cry

Why do they have to die

Why do I still not have a dry eye

Why do we have to keep asking why

Why lie

Why not ask what you or I can try

Why not ally

Why not seek answers from the sky

Why do so many have to say too late goodbyes

Why

Let’s try

Be the ally

No more to die

Watching

In response to this week’s Micropoetry (@pssms) prompt #WATCHING.

‪What are we #watching for?‬

‪Shouldn’t we do something?‬

‪There’s nothing to do. ‬

‪Look at those behaviors abhorred‬

‪The politicians say one thing‬

‪Thoughts and prayers, yet still slaughtered youth,‬

‪And others. What’s next in store?‬

‪We keep saying, saying‬

‪Guns don’t kill, people do.‬

Could this be a dream?

I love you. I don’t think I am dreaming. In the parallel universe, is it better there? I don’t know the answer. There are likely infinite realities yet this one is the one I know or am aware of presently. Since this is my here and now, I’ll continue to try to be a better me and help the world and my community be better. I’ll try to consistently spread love and kindness. I’ll continue to question the difficulty realities and understand, or reconcile, or just be with it. And I will cry. And I will then find joy again.

I wish you enough.

For What Reason

I watched Patton Oswalt say,

‘They say, “Things happen for a reason.”

Michelle Eileen McNamara would say,

“No they don’t. There’s only chaos and kindness.”‘

This struck me. Is he right? Was she right?

Well here’s what I think. Maybe there is only chaos and kindness and certainly chaos is what occurred in Parkland, Florida at the Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School. Chaos is what has occurred for a long time when it comes to semi-automatic weapons and the unfettered access we have to them. Kindness is what happens in the rebound of these repeated tragedies but that only provides temporary comfort for those with forever holes in their hearts.

I cried this morning on the way to work when I heard each name spoken with some treasured thing about each of the deceased. But they aren’t the only victims. The chaos make victims of every survivor at the school, every family and friend connected to those deceased and survived, the entire community, teachers and children every where, our nation.

The names of the deceased need to be spoken aloud to learn the depths of despair and depravity.

Alyssa Alhadeff, 14

Scott Beigel, 35

Martin Duque Anguiano, 13

Nicholas Dworet, 17

Aaron Feis, 37

Jaime Guttenberg, 14

Chris Hixon, 49

Luke Hoyer, 15

Cara Loughran, 14

Gina Montalto, 14

Joaquin Oliver, 17

Alaina Petty, 14

Meadow Pollack, 18

Helena Ramsay, 17

Alex Schlachter, 14

Carmen Schentrup, 16

Peter Wang, 15

They were musicians, athletes, Merit Scholar semifinalists, coaches, mentors, sisters, brothers, fathers. All innocent and all part of this ongoing tragedy that only we, in the greatest nation in the history of the Earth, can do nothing about.

Say their names, go back and say the names of the other victims, giving back to Columbine and beyond. They deserve to be spoken and heard. Do something positive to get beyond the chaos and dive into the kindness. Reach out, share love. You are a human being doing.